Failure to Launch?

I'm sitting in the lobby of my building, and a couple of girls are walking through speaking Ukrainian. I admit that it's a little distracting. Today I'm contemplating my own story, how it spans beliefs and years and continents and relationships and coffee shops and books and dreams and struggles and disappointment and fears and successes and semesters and roadtrips. It's been an interesting week or two lately. I don't know what it all means, but I'm definitely seeing myself with a different perspective than I have before.

I've really gotten a lot more involved personally with the small group at Antioch, and I'm glad to have friendships budding on that front. I'm on the precipice of a new semester with a couple of profs I've not had yet, and a few I've had before. I'm looking for a job that is more consistent that the tax company seems to be willing to be. As I am assessing all these things, I'm really brought to the idea of community and "moving in" to whatever space God has put me in. It seems like up to this point I've been living in Texarkana and Conway with little commitment to calling either one home. However, I'm 22 now, and it seems time to call Conway home for real. I'm in my third year of living here. It's where I'm registered to vote. It seems like it's about time for me to actually nest a little bit. I'm not sure why I've had this long transition, this failure to launch, and maybe I really haven't had it such as that. I've got a handful of friends on either side of the divide-- those who have their own houses and multiple jobs and school, and those living like I am in the dorm with negligible employment. It isn't so much an embrace of poverty that has happened in my own mind as it is an acceptance of less. I don't have a real answer for all this, it just is.

Anyway, I'm feeling like it's time to explore Conway, to visit people, get a job that earns actual consistent money, and to live in the place I've been stationed. I've thought this before, it turns out.

I suppose that's all for now. School starts Thursday.

T